I was born into a large family, I'm the baby of 6. I can also say I was an only child. The reason is because the oldest of my family is 20 years older then me, the youngest is 12 years older then me. By the time I really remember anything my sisters and brothers were out of the house. I can only remember a full house at the holidays or maybe a few weeks during the summer, otherwise it was just me. I had lots of just "ME" time.
I moved out on my own over 14 years ago. I lived alone in the house that I called home up until a few weeks ago. During that time I had only lived with one guy and that was about 8 years ago now. Even though I have had friends stay the night or boyfriends stay with me, no one really lived with me 24/7. I could have all the "ME" time I wanted whenever I wanted! Until now.
The past two weeks I have either been at my brothers house, which is my new home or a my best friends house on the weekends. I stay there at night so I don't wake my brother when I come home late. The time off that I had I was hoping to spend at least the mornings enjoying the silence of the house and snuggling with my kitties. I had also hoped to make a couple videos and watch them too. No such luck! My other brother came over each morning around 9 or 930am to use the computer. So no "ME" time.
Then today, I could feel my crankiness starting. I need to just get away from everyone! I thought I could have my lunch all to myself and also 30 minutes once I got home from work. Neither one panned out the way I had planned. First today at lunch we ordered pizza for a gals last day at work. So I stayed inside at lunch instead of sitting in my car away from people. The pizza never showed. The manager quit so many things went wrong at Pizza Hunt, it was a mess. So my only time alone was going to be right after work. I turned down my street and there was my brother's SUV. Not the one I live with but the other one! WHAT?? He gave me a reason why he was there but I really didn't care, once again I couldn't have any "ME" time.
Tonight I went to my best friends house and cooked her supper. Today was her birthday and since her husband had to work I fixed supper for her and her family. I wanted to do that but I still haven't had any "ME" time. Now I am at "home" and even though I am in my bedroom by myself and my cats I'm still not alone. I can't sing at the top of my lungs, I cant turn the radio up or make a video or even really watch any video to loud or he might hear. I really need to get away.
Tomorrow, I am going over to my house and take a nap on my bed, or who knows what. Whatever I will do I will be by myself. I will enjoy every second. Plus there will be no phone! I need some time for just myself. If I don't get it I am afraid of what might happen.
Wish me luck!!
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