Today it is one year since I have changed jobs. I still work for the same company I have for 14 years but the job itself changed some. I went from making coffee machines to sending out parts for them and working in the office getting orders to send out.
The change in jobs at first was a little scary I will admit. I had done the same thing and worked with mostly the same people for 13 years. I was not a person that liked change at all but I knew that I needed to make it. I placed a bid to go to another building doing something I had never done before and I got the job. I didn't really tell many people that I was leaving until the last day. I didn't want a big deal made out of it.
The main reason I left my old job is something in the past now and I really don't want to keep bringing it up. All I will say is my decision to leave was very sudden but it turned out to be the best thing I have ever done.
So much has happened this past year. I have been slowly making my way to an office job. At the moment I work only part time but I would one day like to make the change once again and work in the office full time. Within the next few years I hope that will happen.
I couldn't be happier at my current job, that is something I thought I would never say. Yes, there are those few people that I could do without and I can tell some pretty wild stories about some of them but that's for another blog.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Thursday, May 23, 2013
A Shift in Energy
Lately I have been feeling a shift in the energy around. This is a wonderful shift and such a wonderful feeling.
I have been feeling in such a slump the past 6 months. I don't know if it started when I had to move out of my house or if it started when my cat Teddy died. Both were around the same time as well as winter was in full force.
For the past month I have been feeling alive again. It could be the change from cold weather to warm weather. It could be because I can once again watch the birds outside and hear nature at night. It could be because I am able to get my hands into the earth and start growing things. It could be many things but whatever it is I am loving it.
The past few days I have been wanting to start doing the things that I used to do. Getting back into my craft, making things, reading my cards again, spell work. Everything that I haven't done the past 6 months.
It's an odd feeling to go from not wanting to do anything, or talk to anyone to wanting to talk and do again. I want to learn and grow and feel again. I want to feel alive again!
I started over the weekend making a few tie-dyed shirts. Now I know for some making shirts isn't that big of a deal but for me its letting a part of me shine. I have also been wearing dresses and skirts again. I know once again not a big deal for some but for me, it makes me feel like more of my self is being expressed. It's the little things that are bringing me back. Like blogging, I can express what's on my mind again and it feels great!
This shift in energies I am welcoming with open arms. I am feeling whole again and that is exactly what I needed!
Counting your Blessings
Today at lunch I was looking on facebook like always and I saw a friends post on how everything that could, had gone wrong for her. Now who hasn't had a day like that? I have had several days that I can recall thinking I just wanted to go home and crawl into bed and sleep until the next day. There used to be times that I did just that.
Over a year ago I started to make a change in my life. I started to become negative because of people and things that were going on in my life. I had to take a big step back and start doing things for myself and not worry about how others felt.
I looked deep into myself and realized that not everything was bad in my life. There were several things in my life that were good that I didn't even see. Things I took for granted, people I took for granted. Instead of looking at the positive side I always looked at the negative.
It wasn't until after I started my year and a day that I realized what I needed to do to change. What I needed to do to stay happy, or at least half way stay happy. I had to look for the positive in everything I did and everything that was around me.
For example with the tornado in Moore, OK. I could look at that and only see the sadness and devastation. Instead I look at how even though there was loss of life, it could have been much worst. There might have been several homes destroyed but neighbors worked together to find pets and a child's blanket and even the smallest thing that could mean the world to a person.
I choose to watch the stories on the news of great joy and happiness even when something so horrible happens. That is what gets me through the day.
I saw an interview with a woman who was happy and was laughing. She had lost just about everything she owned but yet she was still happy. Why? Because her and her husband were alive. Their neighbors who they helped get into their shelter were alive. She can rebuild and she said they probably will stay in the same area too. She was looking at the positive side of everything and that is how we all should be.
It's not always easy to do at times. There will always be people at your job, on the highway while you are driving, at the store, even your own family that will try to bring you down. You need to rise above them and still count your blessings. Think of what truly is important in your life and that will get you though your day.
Over a year ago I started to make a change in my life. I started to become negative because of people and things that were going on in my life. I had to take a big step back and start doing things for myself and not worry about how others felt.
I looked deep into myself and realized that not everything was bad in my life. There were several things in my life that were good that I didn't even see. Things I took for granted, people I took for granted. Instead of looking at the positive side I always looked at the negative.
It wasn't until after I started my year and a day that I realized what I needed to do to change. What I needed to do to stay happy, or at least half way stay happy. I had to look for the positive in everything I did and everything that was around me.
For example with the tornado in Moore, OK. I could look at that and only see the sadness and devastation. Instead I look at how even though there was loss of life, it could have been much worst. There might have been several homes destroyed but neighbors worked together to find pets and a child's blanket and even the smallest thing that could mean the world to a person.
I choose to watch the stories on the news of great joy and happiness even when something so horrible happens. That is what gets me through the day.
I saw an interview with a woman who was happy and was laughing. She had lost just about everything she owned but yet she was still happy. Why? Because her and her husband were alive. Their neighbors who they helped get into their shelter were alive. She can rebuild and she said they probably will stay in the same area too. She was looking at the positive side of everything and that is how we all should be.
It's not always easy to do at times. There will always be people at your job, on the highway while you are driving, at the store, even your own family that will try to bring you down. You need to rise above them and still count your blessings. Think of what truly is important in your life and that will get you though your day.
So many blogs, not enought time to post
Even though I have not posted anything this past week it doesn't mean that I haven't written anything. I have three posts that are in draft stages right now, including one that I wrote today.
I love that I can get on blogger at work now during breaks but I hate the fact that I only have ten minutes to write something. I could write at both morning and afternoon break but it seems like someone is always interrupting or I have text messages I answer. I wish that break was just a little bit longer in the afternoon. If I had 15 minutes instead of just the 10 I could get at least a few blogs written.
I could always skip lunch and write then but I cant eat at my work station and I like getting out of that building at least for lunch. So the only thing I can do is start a blog at work and then hope I finish it after I get home. The one I started today I will be posting as soon as I post this one. Fingers crossed. lol
I love that I can get on blogger at work now during breaks but I hate the fact that I only have ten minutes to write something. I could write at both morning and afternoon break but it seems like someone is always interrupting or I have text messages I answer. I wish that break was just a little bit longer in the afternoon. If I had 15 minutes instead of just the 10 I could get at least a few blogs written.
I could always skip lunch and write then but I cant eat at my work station and I like getting out of that building at least for lunch. So the only thing I can do is start a blog at work and then hope I finish it after I get home. The one I started today I will be posting as soon as I post this one. Fingers crossed. lol
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Finally Spring is Here! (Or is it summer already?)
Finally the heat has arrived to Iowa! Last year we had already had 2 months of warm temperatures. My garden was growing and if I remember right I already picked some of the early crops.
Last year in May there was the Super Full Moon and I was dancing around in a dress without sleeves, and that was at night! The air was fresh and everything was beautiful. What a big difference compared to this year.
Today, May 14, 2013 is the first really warm day. At 2pm when I am typing this it is already 90 degrees!! Just a couple weeks ago we had a snow storm! What is the deal Mother Nature???
No matter how you look at it I am loving it. The birds are out in full force in my back yard, some birds I haven't seen in many years in my yard. The apple tree is in bloom and so very pretty right now. Hopefully the blossoms with stick around this year unlike last year when we had really bad winds within a day or so of the blooming.
The next several days are expected to drop to the 70s for a high which is fine by me. That is how the weather should be this time of year. I can't wait for the first batch of rhubarb to be picked. Ahhh Spring!!!
Last year in May there was the Super Full Moon and I was dancing around in a dress without sleeves, and that was at night! The air was fresh and everything was beautiful. What a big difference compared to this year.
Today, May 14, 2013 is the first really warm day. At 2pm when I am typing this it is already 90 degrees!! Just a couple weeks ago we had a snow storm! What is the deal Mother Nature???
No matter how you look at it I am loving it. The birds are out in full force in my back yard, some birds I haven't seen in many years in my yard. The apple tree is in bloom and so very pretty right now. Hopefully the blossoms with stick around this year unlike last year when we had really bad winds within a day or so of the blooming.
The next several days are expected to drop to the 70s for a high which is fine by me. That is how the weather should be this time of year. I can't wait for the first batch of rhubarb to be picked. Ahhh Spring!!!
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Reconnecting with the Goddess
For some time now I have known that I'm not where I need to be in my life. For years I have been happy with the choices I have been making but the past 6 months I haven't been happy. Not truly happy. I have been eating better and exercising, my job is going well, I am giving back to the community, I just completed my first 5K yesterday even with me being sick. So why do I feel that something is missing?
For months I have been going further and further away from the Goddess. Not that I want to, of hell no, my belief has not changed. The way I go about things are different though. I don't live by myself nor do I have any alone time and I really think that is a major reason why I don't practice my belief like I used to. The weather has been so cold with winter hanging on much longer this year then normal that I haven't been able to get outside and enjoy nature. I need to get my hands in the dirt and explore my favorite trails around the lake. I need to sit and watch the animals.
Today after I went to the gym I went to the lake. I drove around and saw several animals and plants in bloom and trees leafing out. It was beautiful. It was a little on the cool side so I was happy to just be in the car driving around. I stopped once and got out of the car and just looked around. I felt happy. I also asked for the Goddess to re-enter my life and help me spiritually.
When I was at the lake I saw several signs letting me know that I wasn't alone today. My sisters were with me, even if they didn't know it. I went out there around 2:30pm, middle of the afternoon. That is not the right time of day to see the deer out but I saw a couple deer first thing. One of them looked right at me. At first I didn't see the message in it but then I think I have been missing many messages lately. It wasn't until when I stopped and got out of my car did it hit me. I was asking how to get back on track when I saw a big back bird flying in the sky. I am pretty sure it was a crow since we don't have ravens here but I thought of one of my sisters right away whose totem is a Raven. I knew the first step was to start wearing the Goddess necklace again that she had made and given to me.
The deer was a reminder of one of my other sisters who I always think of because I see so many Robins around, both animals are totems of hers. When I was standing with my arms up I looked around and everywhere I looked was yellow. Dandelions. They have a special meaning to me too. The dandelions are family and they reminded me where my home is and where my family is.
I know what I need to do. It's a lot like what I do when it comes to working out. I make myself get up and do it. I have become lazy when it comes to my spirituality like I once was with going to the gym. I once had a knee problem so I skipped the gym. I am living with someone so I have gave up what I believe in so they wont know what's going on. But no more.
I want to be happy again. I want to be complete again. I know I can do it.
For months I have been going further and further away from the Goddess. Not that I want to, of hell no, my belief has not changed. The way I go about things are different though. I don't live by myself nor do I have any alone time and I really think that is a major reason why I don't practice my belief like I used to. The weather has been so cold with winter hanging on much longer this year then normal that I haven't been able to get outside and enjoy nature. I need to get my hands in the dirt and explore my favorite trails around the lake. I need to sit and watch the animals.
Today after I went to the gym I went to the lake. I drove around and saw several animals and plants in bloom and trees leafing out. It was beautiful. It was a little on the cool side so I was happy to just be in the car driving around. I stopped once and got out of the car and just looked around. I felt happy. I also asked for the Goddess to re-enter my life and help me spiritually.
When I was at the lake I saw several signs letting me know that I wasn't alone today. My sisters were with me, even if they didn't know it. I went out there around 2:30pm, middle of the afternoon. That is not the right time of day to see the deer out but I saw a couple deer first thing. One of them looked right at me. At first I didn't see the message in it but then I think I have been missing many messages lately. It wasn't until when I stopped and got out of my car did it hit me. I was asking how to get back on track when I saw a big back bird flying in the sky. I am pretty sure it was a crow since we don't have ravens here but I thought of one of my sisters right away whose totem is a Raven. I knew the first step was to start wearing the Goddess necklace again that she had made and given to me.
The deer was a reminder of one of my other sisters who I always think of because I see so many Robins around, both animals are totems of hers. When I was standing with my arms up I looked around and everywhere I looked was yellow. Dandelions. They have a special meaning to me too. The dandelions are family and they reminded me where my home is and where my family is.
I know what I need to do. It's a lot like what I do when it comes to working out. I make myself get up and do it. I have become lazy when it comes to my spirituality like I once was with going to the gym. I once had a knee problem so I skipped the gym. I am living with someone so I have gave up what I believe in so they wont know what's going on. But no more.
I want to be happy again. I want to be complete again. I know I can do it.
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